I need to forget about women because I will never get a girlfriend. How can I do that?

I thought I'd ask this in the Women's Health section as the majority of people who view this section are women and thus can help me forget about women. I am 20 years old. I have never held hands with a girl. I have never kissed a girl. I have never been in a relationship with a girl. I am still a virgin 1: Girls don't like me/think I'm weird, 2: I'm physically unattractive 3: I'm scared of intimacy. 1: Girls never really liked me. Girls seem to pay attention to my friends but not me. I get pretty much a lukewarm response from all of them. Combine that with the fact that I don't party and I don't drink, I guess a lot of girls don't want a guy they can't take shots with. 2. I'm not the best looking guy in the world. All of my friends frequently get called cute/hot/sexy/handsome. I have been called cute once by ONE girl. My mom's friends call me handsome but their opinions don't matter to me because they're 50 year old plus ladies. I just feel as if they're all full of ****. My friends get approached by random girls all the time. I try not to show my envy and I think I do a good job about it. I guess a lot of girls don't want a guy they can't brag to their friends and parents about. 3. I have this fear of intimacy. I fear being physically and emotionally intimate with a girl/woman because I feel she will rip me to bits. I don't understand sex, I never will, etc. It sucks seeing couples everywhere to be hones, even amongst friends. I have this deep, deep feeling in the pit of my stomach that I will be single for the rest of my life and I will never experience any of these things/get over my fear of sex. Usually when I have these types of gut feelings it usually comes true. I just don't know what to say or do now. I guess keep on living and find some way to forget about girls? All I want is a girl that I can look at every time I see her and feel like the luckiest guy in the world because I'm attracted to her physically and emotionally. But because of how the deck was dealt, I doubt that will ever happen. I need to forget about women. Please do not suggest antidepressants, online dating, religion, or "switching sides".