So guys don't talk

I just read your post, and heard SO much of myself in it. It's been eleven years now for me. In some ways, I still struggle, but I think my kids have been my salvation. My baby just turned 21 yesterday. He's been on his own since he was 18, but lives close by. I wish I knew some magic remedies for you. MY saving act was a cousin who saw that I was going a little crazy being alone all the time. She first tried to get me to go out dancing. Lon and I always danced, and he was a country singer, always had a band. The music tore me up. I just spent half the time in the restroom. SO the same cousin asked me to fill in on her bowling league one night. I had a ball. THEN, the person I filled in for quit the team. They asked me to bowl with them regularly. NO one who knew me would have believed that I would be caught bowling every week, but I did, and the interaction with other people and the obligation to BE somewhere was extremely therapeutic. A friend of mine joined a dart league. Who knows? In my bowling group of friends, I met a couple of people who play golf, which is my THING. We started meeting every Tues. morning early to play a nine hole game and then went out to breakfast. Little by little, these interactions pulled me out of my funk and gave me a chance to breathe again. It still isn't easy, and I won't ever tell you or anyone that you "get over it" because it just isn't true. But you can learn to have a life and move on. Honest! Good Luck! I hope you find some peace.
christine.